I enjoy cleansing, clearing and letting go with the rhythm of the seasons and autumn is a great time for it! I decided to go on a 12 week Candida Cleanse this fall to cleanse and let go of the eating habits and patterns that no longer serve me. During the first week I became emotional, irritable and exhausted. I was not feeling very blissful and definitely off my center.
The truth is that sometimes I fall off my center and life doesn’t always feel blissful. Sometimes I forget my own truth and get stuck in the muck. The beginning of this Cleanse was one of those times. Last time I did the Cleanse, 10 years ago, I felt amazing after the first couple of weeks of no sugar, no coffee, no chocolate, no dairy, no wheat etc. and the results were great! I had more energy, my digestion improved, my mental clarity increased and I woke up happy every day for no reason. I said to myself “I am going to do this once a year!” Well I never did and despite trying many times, I caved; I missed the caffeine and chocolate too much. So here I am 10 years later, trying again!
This time, I realized some of the emotion and exhaustion was about my mindset and thought patterns that no longer serve me – both things I could change. While I was in the muck, I came across a friend who said to me, “I only do what makes me happy and every day I am happy!” I needed to hear that and it was the medicine I needed to help me move forward. I realized happiness is a choice and it is my choice and responsibility to create it for myself. I sat in reflection and appreciation to cross paths with my friend and her wisdom. In reflection, I looked at how I can get stressed and overwhelmed with all the things I love to do and I realized that each day I have a choice to choose to do what matches my energy.
A couple of days later, I chatted with my daughter who is living in London, England. During our conversation, she expressed to me how happy she feels every day and how she feels so much gratitude and loves everything she is doing in her life. She was overflowing with joy and it was definitely music to my ears and medicine for me on my journey. After we chatted, I took care of myself, moving at a rhythm that suited me and did not overbook my day… I could feel my joy was returning! I went to bed early and awoke feeling energized.
It was so wonderful to cross paths with my daughter and my friend last week during a time when I was feeling most vulnerable. It gave me insight and strength to really commit to my joy and bring joy to everything I do, even paperwork, housework and of course, my Cleanse!
I am very committed this time and am already into my second week and feeling strong and enjoying making food and eliminating the other foods. The trick is to be organized with the food prep and remember that we have a choice – we can choose happiness and joy every day!